invisible.

hello emo blog. :(

yes. i am damn chat emo now. thats why i am here. sighs.

why can.t you just tell me how your feeling instead.

why does things always have to end up this way.

1st-ly, since when the hell i didn.t let/like it when you go out with ur bff. hello? i am not brainless ok. i just don.t like it. when say we are fighting over something. and you just leave. just like that. and than when ur back. u tell me its bed time. well, i never liked dragging stuff overnight, and i believe in solving everysingledamnthing before bed.

well, yes, i admit i was abit weird last year. but i do learn from my mistakes. i fcuking appreciate everything you did.

2nd-ly, i BLOODY HELL NEVER insisted we be in the same classes. well, i don.t deny i wish we can be in same classes. but hey, if you didn.t wanted. i.d respect ur decision. its all about giving and taking in a relationship right?

well, i know we once fought over it. and i wanted to change classes immediately, but did you allow? no. you even showed me the "i was just joking about different classes thingy last night, and now i wan you to change class with me k" face and smile. urgh. i donno how to describe la. but if u recall. u.d know.

3rd-ly, well yes. i don.t like it when you go clubs. with xxx. but all the other times? i asked you to go with ur friends. even when ur asleep, your friends asked me to inform you, & i did.

4th-ly, i remember very damn well, on new years eve, i asked you super damn kao alot of times if u were sure u wanna go for the bbq thing with me instead of spending time with ur friends. you said. YES. cause u didn.t had the mood to go out at all cause you were sick. well, you were quite sick that night. but. sighs.

it doesn.t matter you know. seriously. if you wanted to go out with them. cause if i were you. i would wanna spend new yrs eve with my friends too. but if i get to choose i.d spend it with both my friends and boyf. sighs.

5th-ly, i remember asking you to join your friends during classes or break time. but you said its ok. if you want to you could.ve just went and sit with them la ok. its not like we talk non stop during class or when we are eating. URGH.

6th-ly, can you stop assuming how will i feel if you did this, or that, or that. and therefore do things you don.t like and keep everything to yourself. i just don.t understand it. why can.t you tell me what are you really really thinking about. :(

7th-ly, did you think everytime when i told you i wanted to drive alone i was joking? i asked you for a reason. because i simply know if you see too much of me and everything u.d go crazy. well, its you. but did you allow? nooooo. simply because you say i drive like a mad person and u duwan anything to happen to me. sighs

8th, why the hell am i doing this. well, maybe because i still love you too much to believe whats happening is true. well. i mean. i do accept half of it. but i don.t believe a single thing you said.

i just know. the real reason isn.t what you told me. thats all i know. sighs. :(

deep down inside, i still love you.